Welcome! Mend Ministries is excited to announce that we will be venturing through Hannah's Hope by Jennifer Saake for the 2015-2016 calendar year. Below you will see our calendar. We meet in the Annex at Fellowship Bible Church in Rogers, Arkansas. If you would like a map of Fellowship or more information about Mend Ministries, please contact MendMinistries@gmail.com or find us on Facebook: MendNWA
Saturday, August 29, 2015
Monday, August 25, 2014
Fall/Spring Calendar
Welcome! Mend is excited to get started September 9th! We will be going through the book " When God Sees Our Tears" by Cindi McMenamin . Join us as we venture through life's tough spots, learning about our grief and how we can thrive in the difficult journey of life! We will be meeting at a NEW location. We will be at Fellowship Bible in the Annex building. As soon as I get a map, I'll upload it here. Mark your calendars for September 9th!
Thursday, June 19, 2014
Friday, March 14, 2014
The Bright Side of Suffering
*This is the second
part of a 2 part blog on suffering. You can find the first one here
You may be wondering
how in the world there could be any bright side to suffering. Even as I
type these words- I cringe a little even putting the word bright and suffering
in the same sentence. However, as any person who has gone through a life
changing difficulty knows, if you aren’t able to make the situation any better,
at some point you have to move forward, and this means looking for the joys in
the darkest of moments even if you don’t want to.
I write these next few
things knowing that not every person has felt this way or will experience these
changes. In every situation, we have a choice. When we fight through the tears
and shock of unexpected pains, we ultimately have to decide how we are going to
handle what life throws at us. These are a few of the most beautiful aspects of
suffering:
1. You can become a
fruit bearer in your pain
After tragedy strikes
do you find yourself researching your situation? Maybe you’re struggling to
start your family so you find yourself investigating any and everything about
infertility. Maybe your child unexpectedly passed away and now you find yourself
furiously reading and building up your knowledge base about the why’s and how’s
of this tragedy.
For many of us, our
deepest pains become our greatest passions. I truly believe that if you
are willing to step out of the comfort zone of your pain- God can use you to
impact the lives of others around you and ultimately- move mountains through
your pain. I know, I know- it’s scary, isn’t it? It is terrifying to be
vulnerable in your greatest wounds! But believe me when I tell you that if you
allow God to use your pain for his glory- stepping out in faith, despite the
vulnerability of your pain, he WILL use you.
Think about that for a
moment. Your wound hurts and the suffering is there no matter what. Either you
choose to let it sit and be just that- suffering, or you choose to USE it for
his glory. The wound is there either way- but God allows us the option to
become a fruit bearer from the pain in order to expand and further his kingdom.
“ Praise be
to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and
the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so
that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we
ourselves receive from God” 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
Did you notice the
“comfort” trend? Paul reeaaallly wanted us to understand the importance
of this word here! I noted 2 things in this passage. One being the obvious
repetitive emphasis on comfort and second, the linear order for
comfort. We see first the origin of comfort, then how he comforts us in our
pain, so that in turn we can comfort others with the same comfort we have
received!
2. You will never be
the same again
This was also on the dark side of suffering post. For
many of you who have gone through or are currently going through a dark valley
of life, you may think of how things were prior to the pain. It’s easy to wish
that you could go back in time to when you naively & blissfully went about
your day thinking all was well - until your world came crashing down.
However, I can
honestly say that I am forever changed- for the better. My
eyes have been opened to the immense brokenness of this world. Its almost
as if I have been given a new set of glasses called perspective that I
had never seen out of prior to our pain. Or maybe- for the first time in
my life, my eyes were opening see the true reality of living in a fallen
world. Like a newborn baby opening its eyes for the first time, I could
only open them ever so slightly, squinting at the sting of this bright world.
When you are being
forced to see life through a new lens, you can’t help but notice all the
turmoil around us. In turn, this new perspective gives you an incredible
gratitude for things many take for granted. The little joys of the day become
some of your greatest moments of thankfulness. Your heart becomes soft and
tender to those around you experiencing difficult times. Ultimately- you are
being refined by the fire.
“ I have refined you
but not in the way silver is refined. Rather, I have refined you in the furnace
of suffering” –Isaiah 48:10
Refine: to
remove by purifying. To reduce to a pure state.
Do you know what it
truly means to be refined by the fire? A refiner knows just how long to leave
its chosen metal in the furnace in order for the impurities to rise to the top
to be skimmed off, ultimately leaving behind a beautiful liquid metal
reflection. God, our refiner, knows just how long we need to be in the fiery
furnace of suffering, in order for our impurities to rise up and out of us,
revealing a stunning reflection of HIS image and likeness.
I am not saying that
you are suffering because you are impure and he wants to refine it out of you.
For many of us- I believe the order of events is different. We are impure by
human nature, living in a broken world experiencing suffering, and he refines
us in the process to shine forth his image and likeness. He does not want to
burn me in the fire of suffering but he will use my pain as a means to refine
my soul into becoming more like him! What beautiful imagery!
If you are willing-
you have the ability to grow leaps and bounds in your faith, your wisdom, and
your perspective on the world around you. I say “if you are willing”
because not everybody will grow in that direction. Pain can make you do crazy
things- and for some, instead of turning to growth, they choose to stay in the
pit and let Satan steal their joy, faith, and strength. And trust me- if you
let him, he will steal it.
My hope is that you
choose to let him refine you in the fire of your suffering. The benefits far
outweigh the momentary sting of this worlds pain.
3. Lukewarm is not an
option
I have a confession.
For the majority of my life- I was a lukewarm Christian. I had a mediocre faith
fueled by complacent passion to know and trust Him. Up until 3 years ago,
nothing detrimental had ever happened to me. I had never been challenged in my
faith or had a reason to cry out to God for answers for my empty aching arms.
Then tragedy struck.
More than once.
When you go through a
life altering situation, you naturally take a very hard look at your faith. I
believe this is a pivotal moment for many people. You make a conscious
decision. You are either IN or you are OUT. There is no lukewarm faith when you
come face to face with suffering. Some of life’s deepest hurts have
caused people to completely turn their backs on God while others choose to stop
walking and start running toward Him. In my experience, I have done both. I
initially turned my back on God with an immense amount of bitterness toward the
pain caused to me. The consequences of this were detrimental to myself and my
marriage. My pit of hurts became a sea of regrets that I allowed Satan to drown
me in. It is only when I made a conscious decision to start living
through the pain in Christ, not allowing it to suffocate me, that life became a
lot more meaningful- despite the continuing suffering of losing our babies.
Much like the church
of Laodicea in the book of Revelation- God despised how lukewarm they were. He
literally wanted to spit them out of his mouth because he would rather them be
either hot or cold- but definitely not lukewarm. He desires me to
stop walking in faith and start running, sprinting, toward him. He
is ready, with arms open wide, to embrace me.
You are in a pivotal
moment in your life where you have a choice. Suffering already does the job of
naturally taking us out of a lukewarm lifestyle- but it is our choice which
direction we run. Which way are you going?
4. Deeper intimacy
with God
One of the absolute
most precious outcomes of having been knocked into the pit of suffering has
been in my relationship with God. Many people I have spoken with agree
that there is a much deeper intimacy with Christ when you are in the darkest
spots of your life. This oneness with Christ is unlike anything I have ever
experienced. When life comes crashing down before you and nothing else on this
earth feels worth living for, all you have is God and yet so ironically beautiful:
God is ALL YOU NEED. Just you and him. In your most raw moments, God picks you
up, holds on tight and rides this devastating wave with you. I have seen my God
like I have never seen him before.
This intimacy doesn’t
happen over night. It is a process of letting God into my bruised and wounded
soul, allowing him to speak tenderly into my heart. As I dive deeper into him
through prayer, scripture reading, and continually bringing him every ache and
pain of my soul, he reveals more and more of his glorious self. I am in
awe of the goodness of the Lord. Job, the king of suffering himself, said it
best …
“ My
ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you” Job
42:5
So, press on wounded
soul, and press into Christ!
~ Kristin
Friday, February 14, 2014
The Dark Side of Suffering
*This is part 1 of a 2
part blog about the dark and bright sides of suffering
This is intended for
two reasons. First, to allow those who have gone through or are currently going
through suffering, the ability to identify with others who have felt the same
way they have. Second, to bring light to those family, friends, and
acquaintances who could benefit from understanding what may be going on to
those around them experiencing hard times.
These are what I have
found to be some of the hardest parts of suffering in relation to the wounds in
motherhood.
1. Long after
the phone calls, meals, warm hearted texts, and well wishes end-your pain
continues.
In my own experience
and in speaking with other women in their journeys, I have noticed a trend.
Upon the initial shock of tragedy, when support tends to be at its highest, you
may be feeling strong. You may be feeling like you are able to get
through anything, encouraged by others, and may even feel hopeful for your
future. But what most friends, family, and colleagues do not see, is that when
all of that support begins to fade over time, and it will, your suffering will
intensify.
If you are
suffering-you may be feeling like a tourist lost in New York City. People
zooming by with life, seasons changing, everyone moving along, all the while
you are still standing there, feet paralyzed, trying to process all that has
happened to you.
Word of advice for
family/friends/acquaintances of hurting souls:
Please know that it takes much longer than you think is healthy or “allowable”
to move forward with life’s hardship. When all of the company and support
dwindles, we are left here to soak our pillows in tears and spend countless
nights thinking about the pain. Have patience with us and most
importantly, keep supporting us long after you think we are “okay”.
2. Your friendships
will change.
Losing a child, going
through infertility, any kind of hardship in the journey of motherhood,
unintentionally places a barrier between you and everyone else. Many
friends and family will not know how to react to it. Some friends will not ask
you about it out of fear of touching a “tender” spot. Others will try to be
there for you, but end up saying hurtful things. Wounds in motherhood often
scar the soul so deeply that it affects every relationship a woman has in her
future. Your circle of trust may become smaller and smaller. You may
unintentionally deem certain family or friends as “unsafe”. Others you feel
very safe around. If you meet a woman who has gone through a similar pain, you
feel an immediate common bond with her, sometimes deeper than the friendships
you’ve had for years. Embrace the changes in friendship & have grace for
those family and friends who may not know the best ways to be there for you.
Words of advice for
family/friends/acquaintances of hurting souls:
Please ask your friend how you could be there for them during this time. Ask
them what they need from you and express your sympathy for their pain. Try to
be as sensitive to their needs as you can, especially if you have children.
When you think they are fine- know that they are probably not, and could use an
encouraging word, note, text, phone call, or visit to show them you care.
3. You will never be
the same again
(This will also
be on the “bright side of suffering” post!)
Ask any person who has
gone through the loss of a child, a loved one, struggled through infertility,
miscarried, watched their child with special need struggle through life, or
walked the road of adoption loss, abortion, or unasked for illness- and they
will agree that they will never be the same again. They may feel that they have
been stripped of their identity and are being forced to redefine who they are.
Sometimes these wounds go so deep into the soul of a woman that she is forced
to reexamine, search for, and call out to God to provide for and pour into her
the joy that only comes from Him. This is NOT a bad thing- in fact, quite the
contrary. Change can be a wonderful thing, especially when it involves the
power of our Creator transforming us into what HE desires. Nonetheless, when it
comes about in the form of tragedy, it is incredibly heart wrenching and
sometimes physically painful to accept. I did not ask to change- I am being
forced. Even though I can confidently say I am thankful for the hardship
because of who God has molded me into- it had to come about in the hardest and
most gut wrenching way possible: the loss of my children.
4. People say hurtful
things
It is no secret that
humans are not always the most sensitive and graceful creatures with our words.
Friends, family, and acquaintances of hurting souls- here is a little cheat
sheet of things NOT to say. These are some of the things that people have said
to our women:
-
-When are you guys going to have kids?
-
-Don’t you guys know how babies are made?
-
-Don’t worry, you will have another child. My
sisters cousins best friends aunt lost a child and went on to have twins!
-
-Why don’t you just adopt?
-
-You know you’ll get pregnant as soon as you
adopt.
-
-Its not fair that you aren’t as happy for me and
my baby as I was for you before your child passed away
-
-Ugh, pregnancy is so annoying. I can’t believe we
decided to do this again.
Words of advice for
family/friends/acquaintances of hurting souls:
Please watch your words. This does not mean being silent. In fact, many of our
women have said that one of the most hurtful and relationship-damaging things
you can do is when you choose NOT to say anything to the hurting person. Ask
God to give you the words to say, and please, please say them to us.
In addition- to those
hurting souls: It is important for those of us going
through hardship to have GRACE and patience for everyone around us. We were all
one of those people prior to our hardship- so please, have grace and
forgiveness for those around you. Most people are well intentioned, they just
don't have the experience or skills to speak tenderly to a womans pain.
5. There is no side
stepping pain.
It is our human nature
to figure out a formula for fixing any problem that may arise in life. You
aren’t doing well in school? Study more. You want to be a better dancer? Take
lessons. Nearly everything we do is based on formulas and rewards. However,
when it comes to wounds in motherhood, there is no formula. Even so, I
naturally gravitated toward this when it came to my faith. If I only prayed
harder or sought harder after God- then he would fix my situation. However, as
many of us have discovered, life hardships and tragedies are often not changed
by our deepening relationship with Christ. A stronger relationship with our
Savior will do multiple wonderful things for you during your pain- it will
equip you with the tools to thrive in hardship, give you hope that only comes
through Him, and if you allow him, God will use your pain for his glory in
miraculous ways- but it is NOT a formula for fixing your pain. There is no fast
track through pain. You must walk through it, all the way, to get to the other
side.
My hope is that you
choose to hold the hand of your maker, who so lovingly longs to carry you
through the hardship. It doesn’t mean it will be easy- but I promise you that
he WILL transform you for his glory if you let him.
Part 2 of this will be the BRIGHT side of suffering… stay tuned!
-Kristin
Friday, October 25, 2013
{ hope }
What does hope look like
to you? If you're like me, hope takes on new meaning with each new situation in
life. I used to think that having "hope" meant holding onto a wish or
desire, believing that it will come true. Then life threw a dozen
curveballs my way and suddenly I was left asking God what having hope
REALLY looked like. I came to understand, through reading scripture and
one of my favorite books "Reign on Me by Holly Gerth", that hope is
not a wish to be granted. Having hope means holding onto God's promise that no
matter what happens in life, He W I L L carry you through it. Not only will He
pull you through, but you will be transformed by Him because of it. Don't get
me wrong, it is perfectly fine to have hope that a desire, such as having a family,
will come true in His time. However, I am learning, by experience, that maybe
my hope shouldn't be rooted in MY desires, but by His alone.
I saw this the other
day and thought it was pretty neat. Though, as a I keep looking at it, I
have a little bit of a problem with it. The pain from some trials are so deep
that they will NOT end. I do believe that the grieving pain and depth of pain
from a loss will eventually taper off, but in all reality, there are certain
situations that life throws our way that in which 5 months, 5 years, or 50
years from now will still be painful to revisit. However this fits into your
situation, I still think the above picture is awesome- even if I still struggle
with some of the details.
Above all- we have Hope in
Him that he will carry us through whatever life hands us- good or bad. No
matter what my dreams or your dream is- His plans are better, through heartache
and happiness!
Romans is a great book of
the bible filled with HOPE verses:
" For in this hope we
were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees?
But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience"
8:24-25
"Through him we have
also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice
in hope for the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings,
knowing that suffering produces endurance, endurance produces character, and
character produces HOPE, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love
has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to
us." 5:2-5
What does hope look like
to you right now? I'm praying for your understanding of hope in
your situation whether it be good or bad. Know that no matter what you have
been through or are currently walking in- He WILL carry you through!
-Kristin
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
All aboard the perspective train...
When I was a little girl I
would wake up and lay there in bed, staring at my fingers for awhile before
actually getting up for the day. You see, I am "legally blind". This
doesnt mean I can't see anything, it just means my vision is worse than 20/200
( in fact my vision is 20/800... yikes!) When I was little my vision began to
fade quick and so began the years of awkward big glasses and then finally
contacts. Every night I'd lay in bed, essentially blind to everything around
me. It could be terrifying at times. But in the morning, I'd open my eyes and
before putting my glasses on, I'd lay there, face against the mattress, staring
at my hands. I had lost sight of nearly everything, but my eyes could focus
with incredible intensity on my hands, fingers, nails, everything directly in
front of me. I could see every little wrinkle and line in my hands, every tiny
hair standing straight up. As soon as I'd put my glasses or contacts in, I
could no longer see that close with such clarity. I always wondered, " Can
everyone see things that close up with such sharpness? Or is it only because I
have such immense nearsightedness?"
I still wake up and am
amazed by my hands. I know that may sound creepy to you, but it is amazing to
see something God created so close up with such definition and sharpness.
Especially when you are not able to see it on a daily basis. It is only when
I am blind that I can see with such clarity. I was pondering this beauty
the other day while driving back to Arkansas and the word perspective
kept flashing in my brain.
In highschool my good
friend Charles & I would spend summers outside looking up at the clouds
talking about what shape's we see. Everytime we'd look at a big puffy white
cloud, we would each say what we thought it looked like. The majority of the
time we both saw something different. Then we'd always end by saying, "
it's all about perspective..." Same clouds, different perspective's,
different outcomes.
It is incredible how much
perspective I have gained in the last 2 years on many avenues of life I never
wanted to imagine. I often feel like I was living life much like a horse with
blinders on it. Not able to see behind or beside me. I was looking straight
ahead and determined to accomplish life goals in the order I wanted with the
perfection I so "deserved". Throw in disappointing life
circumstances, losses and tragedy's and suddenly I found myself drowning in a
sea of my own egocentric perspective. I could only see my desire's in
front of me, and when those came crashing down, I was left unaware of how to
refocus my eyes on the truth of what was actually in front of me.
Enter the Cross.
Oh, how thankful I am for
the cross. My heart literally overflows with thankfulness for my Savior. Never
in my life have I understood the depth of God's nurturing love, intense
forgiveness, and unwaivering faithfulness as I have today. He used my pain from
disappointments to blow the blinders off my eyes and open them to a whole world
of understanding. Suddenly my perspective was changing, growing, everyday. He
is teaching me perspective, daily.
I recently had a medical
procedure done in St. Louis to make sure things were "okay" . I had
already had this procedure done this time last year, but my new specialist Dr.
wanted to take a look herself. Everything was fine and dandy last year so as
usual, I expected this to be great too. Especially since literally all 50
billion medical tests I have had in the last 2 years all come up
"normal" . To my shock, it was NOT normal. In fact, it threw
another wrench in my "perfect plans" . In a couple weeks I will have
surgery to fix the problem and who knows what to expect there after. My
point in telling you this is because this was the first time I have heard
something disappointing like this that I didn't flip out. In fact, I honestly
feel like God has given me new perspective on things like this. On one hand, I
can be sad that my body is once again broken and now requires surgery, money
and time to "fix" . On the other, I can choose to take the
perspective of thankfulness and trust. Thankful that they found this before it
turned into more losses/disappointments. Thankful for this Dr's eagerness to
treat me. Thankful for insurance. Thankful for loving family and friends that
pray for me and encourage me daily. I have the choice to take a true heart of
trust. God knows my pain. He knows my desires. He knows my intense prayers. He
knows what I need, when I need it and HOW I need it. I want to continue
learning how to whole heartedly give my worries, my circumstances, and my
desires to God without putting parameters and rules around my trust in Him.
My perspective on life is
always changing. I feel as though I'm always adding little perspective coins in
my bank of perspective. And although we all have a natural perspective on any
and everything, I want to remind you (and myself), that often times we have a
choice in what perspective we choose to take on life circumstances. You can
always stop and ask yourself " How am I going to view this today?"
" How am I going to let affect me today?" It amazes me that only when
my desires came crashing down and only when I am literally physically blind to all
things far off, I am able to see what is truly in front of me with incredible
clarity.
Today, I am choosing a
perspective of thankfulness & trust in Him.
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